On Friday, I ended up going to a BBQ unexpectedly with the Jap girl's ESL classmates. Here are the metal box grills that are open for public use. It was a bit ghetto because they bought some cheap food which we had to eat without utensils, and all the money went to the shopping cart full of beer. We drank til night time and my Jap friend even swam in her underwear.

All I want to say is that everyday is different for me. I had some good matrix work done with Mark online, and I've been getting back into spiritual work (meditation, yoga, reiki, matrix, busting loose, etc.). I am in a good space these days, like even with all the difficulties, I could see everything in the bigger picture. It doesn't matter if some things have been "bad" or "good," because I am learning and growing in every way. Alan said I should figure out my goal so I can get the best out of this trip. From our conversation, I realized that I don't have any set goals because my learning has been happening right in my face. Situations pop into my life that challenge alot of my past conditioning. After all, it really doesn't matter what you do or don't do. If my higher self is creating everything for me, then of course I'm not supposed to have it easy to begin with!

I talked to Rosa online and she sent me some Carlos Castaneda links which she has only recently dived into. After I got offline, I was at the beach drinking mate with Mr. Brazillian. Somehow, he has picked up a Castaneda book also. Very strange! I was surprised because he's not into spiritual work, but I guess he just finished reading "The Alchemist." He wasn't feeling well that day, so I offered to heal him. Eventhough he was skeptical, he was finally opened to my healing. Well, I have changed another non-believer that day. What can I say?

So my plan was to leave this place around a week from now according to my notice for my roomate. I'm still unsure of where to go yet, but either Melbourne or fruit pick/packing somewhere. Until today, I walked by an organic store/cafe where they had a sign out looking for workers. I chatted with the guy there and applied, so this will be my last shot at Manly. If I get this job, then I will stay. The last few days I have been thinking that I might miss this place alot. One evening, I sat at the wharf with Brazillian drinking mate and listening to his guitar while watching the sunset over the mountains. So nice, you know? I thought that I would like to live in a place where I can swim in the ocean whenever I want. What more can I ask for? I think I would be very satisfied.

I don't know why I haven't used my friends' real names yet, or care about their privacies. Since I will probably mention Brazillian again, his name is Rodrigo. He has a nick name too but I'll stick with Rodrigo here. Jap girl is on her way to fruit packing now, but anyways, her name is Meg. Our parting was very anti-climatic just like another day, because I wasn't sure when is the last time I will see her.

Nowadays, I'm just going online, chilling at the beach, shopping for groceries, and cooking. I picked up a book from a second hand bookstore today called "Handbook to Higher Consciousness." It's from the 70s and cost me $4 Au. I have to watch my budget so I can't afford those $20+ spanking new books. I have been searching for a good read at the right price for sometime now. It must be the tourists during the summer season picking up all the good ones that I had my eyes on before.

It seems like alot of my friends in Vancouver are going through some troubles. If you are one of them reading this, then I send you some healing...right here and now (pause and receive). I love you!