WTH....

After the post yesterday, I felt quite confused and strange. I went to Rodrigo's to watch a movie, and I talked with him about my situation and feelings. I wasn't sure if I was ready to leave this place, is it attachment or am I not ready to be on the go again? Not sure about the farmer thing, as he might not pick me to be in his house (being judged again). For the past few days, I could look at all the difficulties in the bigger picture and felt that I am enjoying this whole process. I can say that I felt in control internally before, but yesterday, my emotions were completely out of control even when things are not... so bad? What guys don't understand is that women just want someone to listen to them instead of having something solved sometimes. Eventually, he got annoyed with me and became very insensitive, so I went off crying... sat at my rock. So confused and noisy in my head. I centred myself a bit and slept it off.