Long time no blog

Yes, I'm still alive!
I've moved into a place finally.... with internet!
It's late now so I'll write more another day... happy holidays!

stupid troubles

Crikey! So last night I emailed the first job I had about not getting paid by them and I told them I would take legal actions otherwise. The boss called me this morning and was super pissed. He was swearing and saying I didn't make any contribution to his company, so I guess he thought he didn't have to pay me since I left after a day. He hung up on me, then he called me and said he would pay me through the legal system, then he added that he would take legal actions towards me afterwards. WTF, right? I'm not gonna get pushed around as a traveller! For so little money too...f%$...

Ok I got the waitressing job at the other restaurant now. It's a modern Asian restaurant that's really busy. I don't know why I keep picking the busy places. Yes of course I screwed up if you are wondering. At least they are nice about it unlike the experience I had when I was young. Tonight I felt like I was working in a fast food chain because I was doing the takeaway section. Anyhow, everyday I get 1 or 2 free meals, and eating my free southeast Asian meal at the beach after work is well worth the labour. I'm just afraid I won't be able to save much money and pay off my debts. Yes, I have gone below zero point now...in this damn reality.

I started looking at clothes. Shopping is cheap and good here, but I still haven't found anything that is good enough for me to buy. I have to watch my funds too, so I would only buy if it fits me great and the price is right. There was this weekend market at the main strip where you can wear different styles by playing with 2 pieces of cloth. That's the best design I've seen so far for multi-wear clothing here. If I'm making more $, I really want to buy it! Every style looked so good on me, but it's $85 Au. It's not expensive but it is compared to the clothes here. In Vancouver, bathing suits cost like $120? Here it's like $50 Canadian for the same stuff!

I was hustling to get work clothes last minute. While I was at the mall, I got called for an interview for a receptionist position at an architectural firm. So I had to buy corporate clothes which I didn't bring with me for some reason. I actually found a decent pair of shoes and black skirt at thrift stores, cool! However, there have been a pair of shiny black leather shoes I've been eyeing for 2 weeks. The last pair was gone on the same day I needed it!! F$#%!

Back to that receptionist position. I went for the interview and I really want the job now eventhough it's in the city. The duties include web maintenance and photoshop stuff, and I'm sure the pay is good also. But I kind of like living by the beach right now, especially after heading to the city again, I felt the city-ness isn't what I am really into. It's not happening until January so I'll see what happens.

So the German girl and one of the Brazillian guys left. Since then, there have been no new roommates. The Brazillian guy I'm staying with has been sweet to me. He brought me hisbiscus flowers from the tree twice, a top sz. L (from Salvation Army?), and an used Bhagavad Gita book. I'm surprised because he makes fun of my yoga. We would call each other now to see where we are at. One day he took me to the Brazillian restaurant to eat Acai (good fruit from Brazil- anti-oxidant with caffeine/energy boost, same as match).

I have spoken with the German girl I met at the first hostel, and she might stay with me for a week at Manly! She's had it rough, someone spiked her drink, stole her stuff, went to the hospital for 5 days (LSD in drink?), and her backpacker pals ignored her (blamed on her? weird people). I think she's going to chill out for a week and then go back home. Maybe I'll convince her to stay in Australia with me.

I want to find a place soon because hostel is really expensive! I don't want to find any place yet because I have to see what my job situation is. I don't want to stay in city now but if the receptionist job is happening then I can't say no.

The weather has been a bit chilly, with clouds. It's ok because the sun is too hot for me sometimes, and my facial skin gets messed up from it too.

So now I BSed a bit in my resume and getting into restaurant/waitressing jobs. I'm doing some trial shifts so we'll see how that goes. I've always been avoiding that industry because I had really bad experience with it when I was young. I think I didn't get a job for a long time in order to come to this point of having to face my fears. I have to tell myself that I don't have to take myself so seriously and in the end it doesn't really matter what I do, it's how I do and process it. I've done one shift at a white restaurant which was okay, the place was really busy with many staff so I just had to clear tables and stuff. I don't even know what's going on because she said she will contact me when my time was up. After that, I went to another interview for an Asian (westernized?) restaurant and the place is a completely different than the other. They can offer full time for me but need me to commit to 4-6 months because they take a long time to train people. It would not be bad as a plan to settle by the beach and work hard for a few months to save money before moving onto more travels.

Other things have been kinda crazy here, especially when I'm drinking. I get into these scenarios which I will ban from this blog. I don't want to party for awhile, on top of that, it makes me feel upset about my situation sometimes.

Remember there's that annoying guy I've mentioned in my blog? So yesterday he called me out of the blue and told me he got into a motorcycle accident. He wanted me to take care of him or something, and I have only met him once. What was I supposed to do since I have no car anyways? This is all so ridiculous that I had to shake my head in disbelieve. I ended up giving up my evening to be in his place to "comforting" him. At least, he has a Japanese guy roommate who is somewhat normal. We watched the movie "Pursuit of Happiness" with Wil Smith which stressed me out a bit because I could relate to his role at the moment. I'm living day by day, not sure where I'm sleeping next. We went for a drive around the city after, and it felt nice to be in a car like back home. We did sort out some stuff though, like I was upfront about not being comfortable around him and such. He kept calling and texting me after which was creepy and annoying, but I told him I wasn't interested anyways. The thing is that he's a local and he can offer alot of help (car, place to stay, free meals, etc.), but not sure if it's really right under the given circumstances. OK, I do think he's a nice guy but he's a bit lonely.

I've been partying more now in Manly. I heard partying here is not the same compared to the city, and there aren't as many choices as well. I went to a more classy place last night with 3 floors, and the crowd was older and dressier as well. They actually played underground hip hop on the second floor, interesting.

I quit that "job," because I was underpaid, it was far, and not very fun there. I know I can do better than that.

Some random guy spoke to me on the street. I was actually not really in the mood but we continued to talk anyways. He really annoyed me for some reason with the way he questions things and his blabbering. He was really persistent too so somehow I had coffee with him and ended up going to see the northern beaches on his motorcycle. He was getting a bit touchy too, and I had to move away from him subtly. If a local can show me around with transportation, I should take that opportunity. After that, he kept texting and calling me in the evening and the next day. The last text, he actually asked if I like him! WTF. So I said sorry, just as friends. Maybe it's best if that's the last of it. Travelling alone as a woman is interesting like that. I still consider myself a lone wolf as of now.

Rent was due again, and I'm paying for 3 more nights to see how it goes.

Oh yeah, I have to mention that yesterday Alan the matrix pal has sent me some distance buddha energy from Vancity, and sent me off giddy and smily for awhile. Oh, how I have missed that feeling. Mark is supposed to work on me too, so we'll see how things unravel.

need work!

The Brazillian guys in my room can play guitar and sing, so it's nice to have a band in the room. One of the guys even had a band back home. One night a small bunch of us went to the pool by the beach and play music, snack, drink tea and wine. It was really nice listening to live music, with crashing waves, the moon, and the stars.

I went to that job yesterday. I don't know, man. I know I'm getting under paid. It's kinda boring there and not really a fun environement. I don't want to work there anymore and I hope they will pay me. Hopefully, I will find something before this weekend.

One of the Brazillian guys got me a paper in the morning and told me to get a real job. Nice. Ok the search goes on.

There are thunder storms here and there alot. It's kinda cool to see lightning in the sky.

I also wanted to say for awhile that shopping is awesome here but I don't even dare to go into shops. I cannot accumulate too much stuff and besides, I'm basically flat broke.

I was hoping I could catch my roommate on Satuday night so I can party. When I got home, no one was there, so I walked to the main strip which is a 10-15 minute walk and see if I might catch her or even go in somewhere myself. Well, I couldn't do it. So I walked all the way back home again. Did I mention that, everytime I go to the ferry or main strip, I have to walk the same damn distance? Anyhow, I went back home again, and she caught me. She was actually drinking in another room with other people so I joined them. We played drinking games (no chai mui) which was kinda fun. There was this skinny weird dutch guy who mooned my roommate! I also could see his arse briefly and it was pretty nasty.

At around one, we decided to go ...CLUBBING! Yes, finally.

They have decided to go into this bar with a live band which I thought would be lame. Little did I know, there were actually 2 rooms downstairs and 2 more upstairs. Some fiascos were happening and the guys with shorts weren't allowed to be upstairs. I ended up staying with this Iraq US guy, who was super pissed because everyone stayed up there. He was going to leave but I made him stay and we ended up having a great time. He bought me drinks too...and hey, the Greek guy in the afternoon too. I guess I was allowing abundance flow through me, hehe. He's a pretty good and funny dancer, good times. Another night before he was telling me and only me about the real things happening in Iraq. It's pretty sad how the world is sometimes.

At the end of the night, I went to get a kebab. I had a pretty bad racial remark made to me by the counter guy. I don't even think he's an Australian. Some friendly guy was buying food beside me, and he was joking to the counter guy about woman smoking cigar. Then the counter guy said "except for that," indicating me. So I stared at him and said, "that's not nice," as the other guy was agreeing with me. He said while looking at me, "yes, it's not." I'm still not sure if he was embarrassed and realized that it was bad, or if he was confirming his racist believes. I had a chat with the nice guy, and he was cool as he was very understanding. I was so sad and hating this place, especially when I was also under the influence of alcohol. I thought of trying to get my hostel fee back and really wanted to take off to Bali. Screw trying to make a life out of this ignorant coutry! The same day I was made fun of by some kids, saying "haro, haro..." Alright alright, I have to process my world properly and not be influenced by some random incidents. I can't control what others do and I have to realize that those things happen for a reason. It's an eye opener for me for sure.

The next day I went tanning on the beach. Some French guy picked me up, and asked me to have a chocolate in the evening. I agreed because I don't really know anyone and he mentioned that he would have rooms for rent when the renters leave. He was also leaving in a week too.

I have 2 new roommates, and they are originally from Brazil. I have to mention that Latin people are fun. One of the guys asked me to go to the Brazillian bar that evening. I was hoping to go after I meet up with Frenchie.

Ok, Frenchie and I had chocolate, and then I checked out his place for the sake of the room. I also did some Matrix on him but I got uncomfortable because he was telling me about his "feelings" or testosterone. I reclined from his verbal advances, and at some point called Brazil guy so I didn't have to stay there too long. He apologized though, and I'm still considering the room because it's a good deal. Besides, I wouldn't have to see him for 2 months because he's supposed to go somewhere for work. I don't know if I should stay on Manly though, an isolated peninsula from the city.

I was too late for the Brazillian party, but I chatted with one of them back at the hostel after. He showed me his Thailand pics, and also the special Brazillian green tea. He kept saying that it would change my life. It's made in a metal (ceramic too?) cup and straw, and it's really strong! It was good though, and I'm hoping to have some more when he gets home tonight. Yum yum.

Today, I applied for a job online, and the guy got back to me right away. He asked me to go there the same day and it took me almost 2 fukin hours to get there! It's some warehouse like furniture store in some suburbs. I ended up working there for an hour getting to know their sofas and fabrics. It's only part time for now with weekends, but o well...whatever I can get right? He pays under the table so I think it works out better without the tax. Also, I feel this guy is good and the job is chilled. Ok, so I can say I'm somewhat employed now?

Ok a funny thing happened. I thought I found Jeremy on facebook (djdizzydee), and thought he has moved to Australia. We were exchanging breif messages, and it ended up to be another guy with a similar dj name. He just called me and I suddenly figured out the misunderstanding. I was really LOL at this internet cafe.

OK hoping for some mate tea tonite...