Constant changes

I went for a trial shift for the massage job, and she didn't feel comfortable putting me on a real shift yet. It's probably not something up my alley, as the job wanted me to massage and up-sell a stranger in 5 minutes, with 10 people in an hour. Australians like to hire "bubbly" people, and I am just not really the bubbly chatty type 24/7. This time I don't feel upset about it, but am trying to figure out what the hell is going on with me or Sydney. Both managers from the two workplaces were unsure about me for some strange reasons. This one said she can usually decide on whether if someone is suitable or not, but not with me. The last one said she can't tell and wanted to hear what I thought. I think if I show that I want to try in either places, I can definitely stay.

The Japanese girl said that when people have energy work done, things happen. Mark said I'm having ascension symptoms. I hope to believe that is the reason rather than my incapability to do or stick with anything, which has always been an issue of mine. I feel like I'm stuck in the middle, and perhaps I am only suitable for certain environments. I also feel that I don't really connect with the people here. Maybe Sydney really isn't the right place for me, and changes are happening with no stopping.

I'm probably making a move soon! Unfortunately, I found out I have to give 2 weeks notice to my roommate. It won't be as soon as I thought, so I can't leave with the Japanese girl to go fruit pick/packing. The timing is kind of odd, because I would have another 2 weeks until the course when I leave this place, unless I want to throw my rent money down the drain (again).

I feel at a loss here.